I wasn't popular in high school.

So, I came to college hoping to break some rules.

I was looking for a new start, some new rules, a new beginning.

That's when I started acting like I didn't have any sense;

Hanging with those I shouldn't have been with

Doing things and I know I shouldn't have done it.

That's when God sent you, or at least I think it was Him.

No other church reached out the way that y'all did.

So, I went to the bible study week after week,

You kept me amazed at the way God's word you did speak.

No other preacher kept it real like that;

Made me wanna leave my sinning ways and not turn back.

So I went to your services but I got this funny feeling.

Can't put my finger on it but my spirit didn't bear witness to whatever it was you were dealing.

But I just brushed it off thinking it was the enemy messing with my mind;

Trying to turn me against you and keep me from the love of God I was trying to find.

 

That's when things started happening;

Things that weren't so clear to me.

It seemed like you weren't that kind, that gentle, that meek.

You had little patience and the love that you showed seemed fake to me.

But still I stayed thinking that this was where I was supposed to be

Not knowing that I should be looking for the fruit of the Spirit and not the gifts that you showed to me.

This went on for two years,

Finding myself getting sick again and again

Always tired, always weak.

So he says that I'm not fighting hard enough indirectly.

I start thinking that I've been doing something wrong 

When it was his controlling nature that made em sick all along.

Then all of a sudden people are being suspended or are leaving.

You said the enemy was at work and that was the reason.

Then all of a sudden accusations start to fly.

Rumors are going around intimating you to be the guy

Who went against the very word that you preached

When you decided to step out of line and creep with the women in the ministry.

Rumors of you having false prophecies that you tell.

I'm thinking these rumors are lies cause the ones who started them ain't that innocent themselves. 

Maybe they're just mad because they got caught trying to plot against you.

Or maybe they're telling the truth and wanna warn us about the things that you really do.

I'm not going to worry whether you did it or not.

If you did, He'll handle you and I won't be shocked.

The bottom line is that you were controlling, manipulative, and emotionally hurtful.

On top of all of this, you were arrogant and boastful.

Making us believe that nobody prays as much as you do,

Whatever we do not being good enough for you.

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But the Lord has opened my eyes with his word 

Renewing my mind with his mind and forgetting what I heard

From you or whomever else might have been lying to me.

I gotta move on and get what God has for me.

Can't stay there any longer cause I'm stagnant when i'm under you.

I'm praying for you and hope that you see and repent.

I'm not gonna hold a grudge like those other girls did.

God bless and keep fighting the good fight of faith

And hopefully with God is where will be your fate. 

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